hmm..well i dont know still what road to take..im tired of being lied to...mistreated...everything...now my mother might be put into a fuckin physc ward bc she like us all has lost it...my "sister" is in jail..i wish i could catch a break and just be better...but i just cant help to sag my head sometimes...i always tell myself...at least im alive,i have a place to live,a family that cares..even if we've all lost it..in 20 days i get off my drving probation and will finally be bale to drive past 10! thats the only good news lol..oh and playboy came today haha...wat a kawinkedink huh..on valentines day ahhaha...but oh well i just wanted to get all nice lookin go see step up 2 and then come home and get fucked up...well since i have no one to do ne of that with and they havent uploaded the movie on the net yet so...ill just smoke away all the pot i have...oh well...i always have tomarrow..